Tired

horrible. horrible. AHHHHH. it's just soo hard, i just want to give up...but I need to keep loving, be joyful, be peaceful, be patient. AHHHHHH. please, please, please feel better. it really hurts...cuz I HATE seeing people sad...and because i have a suspicion that it might have been cuz of me...and because i'm the most horrible person at comforting...AHHH. please, please, please remember that Jesus loves you, and that people do care...like me...even though it might not seem like it...but i really, really do.

but, i'm reading this book called A Young Woman's Walk with God. it really really encouraged me. and remind me that i need to go back to God...because i'm tired and dried out. i loveeeeeeee you, JESUS! and i love my awesome friends! [even if i don't get anything back...] you guys should read the book. it's kinda of ish also about the fruit of the Spirit. some parts were parts that i could really really relate to.

anddd. i doubt anyone reads this? but oh well. good way to vent out some stuff i guess. but i hope that if you are reading this...i feel special. (: hahaha. and all the sad parts, you can ignore if you want. i don't really care if you don't comfort/comment about it. okay? okay.

and and and. cyf was pretty fun. I LOVE SINGING PRAISES TO GOD! i really like that song YOU ARE GOD ALONE. *adds to all time fav song list* yaaay! i hope all you guys had fun also! the tank game was kinda fail. but it was pretty funny. whoops, i think i acted kinda awkwardly when he said my name. heheh. oh well. :3 i'm soooo happy that all you guys came! :D CYF also makes my day...being with other bros and sis's in Christ...and just yeaah.

i'm almost done with that one manga series. one more volume to go...and then the other manga series. it's getting pretty intense and complicated again. but that's okay. haha. and the dramaa. it's soooo sweeet it makes me smile. haha.

this is pretty fun typing furiously. hahaha. i'm sorry if this is uber boring. let's see...how to spice up some stuff...idk. ohh spice. uhmm let's see...i'm not sure. haha. how about I rap for you? just kidding...i would fail miserably...

andd in the kpop world...that one DBSK song is so beautiful. the 2PM teasers are very tease-ful. lalala. it's the usual. nothing really crazy or anything...people need to come back ahhhhh.

hmm..at school...i'm doing the Christmas Shoebox thing. time for the advertisement:
THINK ABOUT ALL THOSE POOR KIDS IN AFRICA/CHINA/OTHER PLACES!
THEY HAVE NEVER EVER EVER RECEIVED GIFTS IN THEIR LIVES!
AND YOU CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE!
IF YOU DONATE SOMETHING...OR MAKE A SHOEBOX!
YOU ARE NOT ONLY GIVING A KID A GIFT...YOU ARE SHOWING A KID LOVE!
LOVE OF JESUS! YESH!
THESE KIDS NEED YOU!
PLEASE DONATE!
Think about the kids in Africa...and other places...
please. (:

hahaha. running the booth thing is also kinda discouraging...>____>
AHHHH. it's hard not to think about the negative things. because it's in our nature, i guess. SO LET'S GO AGAINST OUR NATURE! LET'S THINK POSITIVE! because it makes our life brighter and stuff.

right now i'm watching POSER! - The history and evolution of the "Peace Sign"
it's superrr funny. it makes me smile/laff also. and it's uber true.

wowww. this is quite long. hahaha. idk why but i can typee a lot.
ughhh. lunch is kinda annoying. JUST LEAVE ME IN PEACE! geeez. D:
well actually...
nevermind. *chuckle* [: